Unleash the feminine divine through dance

The following is meant to be read like a poetic prose.

When I dance, I allow all I thought should be, could be, will be, has been, go. I allow all time to slip away. My only clock is the heart beat within the drum. My only fuel is the wind of the strings. My only attachment to this earth is the physical body I dance within.  

When I dance, all emotion flows through me and the crystalline body dissolves into water crystals of love.  The music helps carry the gunk from my bones and flows it into the ether where all is neutral, leaving me an open source for healing. 

When I dance, I set boundaries of protection around my stage with eyes of fire and breathe of wisdom. I create liquid chi fields of energy that absorb goo and transform it to peace. 

When I dance, I caress the meridians of the audience and smooth out blocked passages of light. With mudras and form, I spring tendons of negativity out of their aura  leaving room for joy. 

When I dance, vibrations of sacred geometry resonate in my body, intensifying my projection of gratitude to the music.  

When I dance I unleash the goddess of me. When I dance I release the authentic me. When I dance I simply am me..... So what's the difference between the dancing me and the everyday me?  Where did the separateness settle in and when did I put "me" in a staged box of performing? 

On stage I found a perfect way to be present inside the moment. But it isn't just me, it's the musicians as well, we are all present in that performance moment together and we create it together. In that moment of performance all chakras are spinning, kundalini is rising and our bodies are in tune with it self and each other.  By choosing to be in that moment together, we have chosen to be tethered to time by the drum, to be fueled by the strings and be attached to the earth only by our physical form. 

On stage I found the perfect way to bring the audience on the journey with us by creating emotional awareness of movements that hypnotize the viewer in empathy. From stage I feel their excitement, their jealousy, their love, their sexuality, their insecurity. When I dance I am able to guide that emotion  into the ether of neutral acceptance of humanity.  .... So why just on stage? 

Because on stage we have all set up a sacred space for performance. We have all ( the musicians, the audience, and myself) set permitters for creation. We have set the allotted time, the allotted energy, the allotted attention span. We have all committed to be in that moment together with the parameters of the reality we are in. Unknowingly we have created a sacred space for connection. (Whether we choose to keep that space sacred is a different story.)

In every day life could we create that same space for authenticity or are their too many walls of resentment for the self within?  Is it possible for humanity, as a whole,  to look deep enough within to find acceptance for the Human within. The Human is ugly, shy, silly, beautiful, messy, greedy, jealous, lazy, smelly, hungry, childish, lovely, sacred, sweet, sensual, sexual, flirty, crazy, mean, kind, gentle, hurtful, wounded, broken. The human is covered in societal norms and filled with tar. The mind runs in mazes trying to make sense of it all, building walls and rivers just to ease the broken heart. That broken heart:  broken by it's own self. Broken by the neglect of self. Broken by the violence of fear.  That broken heart cries at night for the simple love of universal oneness. The broken heart craves addiction so that no truth can seep in and unravel the distant self hidden deep within. 

In everyday life I could love you. YOU. I could love YOU. I could fall deeply in love with anyone of you and forever be in bliss. And you could love me. We could all be deeply in love with all, even with our hatred. In everyday life I would always be connected .... if you were connected....... You go first...... no wait me.... no wait.... damn I'll see you on stage. and in that moment we will feel the power of chi{life force energy}.

REVISED ENDING 2/7/12:  On second thought : I will go first. I LOVE YOU in all your humanity. I love it when you are sad, depressed, angry, emotional, happy, full of life, crazy, silly, down, up, picky, strong, divine, weak, simple, sultry, wild, mundane, silent, authentic. I LOVE YOU always because I know we are all doing our best in every moment to find that solace of life that makes us feel alive.  I love you because I love me and I know we are all one.   Not only do I love you, but I hear you in every tear, in every laugh , in each breath. I hear your soul awaken and it sparks chi within my core and I feel alive a bit more.

I open my eyes and see that life is not only for performing. Life is for being present in the moment for being raw and wild: Wild as a flower is wild. Wild as a stream is wild. Wild in love with the moment: Growing. Expanding. Nourishing.  And just plain being in the element of the moment.  Life is about being still and fluid in the moment.

So yes I will go first. I have stepped off stage and into the real of Human. I will still see you on stage and yes that will be grand. And I will see you on the street and that shall be just as grand....if you open your eyes with mine and take the time to notice. I'll see you when  you see we are all one in the breathe of stillness.  And in that moment we will feel the power of chi{life force energy}.